Leaves...Cubatah duit banyak camnie...lol:p

Jump to the Moon

~Room Mate Buddies~ Si Manja N' Si Bulat

Occasionally Roomate : Fai

Mirror, mirror on the Wall.

It's has now been excatly 2 weeks and one day since I've arrived in London. Sigh~ how time passes by. Never knew that I would actually be here.

It is now the end of the Fasting month, Beginning of Eid Fitri. So Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin. First time away from my dear family during raya time. Sigh..hopefully I'll get thru the day easily. I'll keep on updating this post till the end of the day. So stay tune, there's more pictures to be seen and happenings to be read.

enjoy! Selamat hari raya <3

FNUA;GBJ;AGHFVNJB;EA

That's how I feel right now. I'm in such a nervous wreck. Yet very Calm. But panicking. Yet Patient. But most of all....AFRAID.

Afraid of not knowing what's coming to me. Afraid of the new country. Afraid of the new school. Afraid of the new enviroment. Afraid of the vast amount of rainfall. Afraid of living alone (yet very much excited:))

2 more days till I "embark" on a new adventure. ARRRGHHHHHH~~~~~

xox, zati

okay...i was going to list on 'how to keep a friend' but i can't think of any way to keep a friend. All I can think of is "How to lose a friend"

so here goes;

1) You misunderstand them causing you not talking to them for the longest time.

2) You misjudged them.

3) You heard about them backstabing you not knowing it was all lies. So you backstab them back

4) You ignore them again.

5) You false lead them into something that they shouldn't be doing

6) You don't appreaciate what they did for you in the past.

7) You don't answer their calls

8) You ignore their calls on msn.

9) You don't reply to their texts.

10) You don't reply to their hundreds e-mails.

11) You throw their sorry cookies and cards, even though they did nothing wrong

12) You refuse to go out with others when you know that the 'friend' is going to be there.

13) You refuse to go out in places where they usually would go.

14) You refuse to let them see your face.

This list could go on and on. But my eyes can't take anymore tears going out. My heart can't keep up with the pieces that's falling down.

I just want to say this to an old friend. [I know you know who you are]. I'm really really sorry to what I've done. I've regretted it. I'm dissapointed at myself. I didn't know that I could be that type of person. I know my sorry ass won't make you heal faster, but I REALLY don't know what else to do. I don't like where our friendship is going now. I know we can never turn back to the way we use to be, I just want us to start a new chapter. I'm really am sorry. Please forgive me.

To those who have friends and love-ones, I urge you not to do the same mistakes that I've done. Instead do the opposites of what I did. So them what they truly deserve; appreciation, time, care and understandment.

xox, zati

 I found these pictures laying in the hidden files . Banyak pulang lagi, like pds class birthday party but I have to scan them first. So these 3 saja dulu lah ahh...[Nadie, don't complain. You look great. LOL.]

xox, zati

Happy Family

sigh~

xox,zati

(was suppose to wirte this the moment i've arrive here but was to lazy..lol)

Been at least 2 weeks now since I've been here. So far so good, I guess. Brunei haven't changed much since I left, just many shopping mall were built every corner. Selling the same stuff with more or less the same prices. Kinda pointless if you ask me, but it's fun seeing the builings.

I miss New York already. I miss walking to destinations. You can't actully walk to places here. That's the downside of Brunei. It's horrible. sigh. 

I think it's been everyday that I've been going to restorants to eat. That's probs the reason my face is getting rounder than before. It's horrible. I should learn how to control eating. ahhh...

mmmm...what else..

Been out with zemah a few das ago..or was it a week ago..I forgot...lol.Brought me around Bandar.. It was so much fun.. I miss that woman so much!!! here that zem...kidnap me soon kay!! bring the others with you. and ohh...I totaly forgot to take pics that day..darn me...even though that day were sort of talking about cameras....apalah~...neways...next time sajalah...

Talking about others... Nadie!! If you're reading this...Dont forget your address sna.. I need it badly. really badly. really realy badly. I miss you woman..I keep on going on your blog for updates and my e-mail...nda jua ada...okay nad...take care

mmmm.....About QMUL, I still have not recieve any decision from them yet. Just their responses saying to be patient. sigh.. I REALLY badly want to go their. I want it so bad. But then I fit does turn out that I have no place in QMUL(Which I'm really hoping that it would not take that turn), I would gladly accept Keele. It is a  beautiful campus. So that's that.

mmhhhhh...ohhh...I got myself glasses. My right eye is 100 and left is 25...weird right? 75 difference. It's like all this time I've only been using my right eye for vision..

okayla~ It's now 11.42 pm...Time for me to sleep.

oh leal if you're reading this, I was about to chat with you on msn, but right at this moment you're set to away. So I didn't dare to disturb you. I miss you woman!! You better update me on your life there. Take care yea...

olryt that's all I have to write for today.

xox,zati

To those who knows me well would be surprised by my next sentence. I've rode on a public transportation today. No it wasn't a bus. And I do know a taxi is not "considered" to be a public transportation, but It wasn't a taxi. It was a train, subway which is called MRT. (Don't know what it stands for, can't be bothered to search for it right now, BUT it was an underground train). So I can officially say I've rode and experienced the public transportation more than 8 times. Muahahahaha:)

So today I took the train. Then I took the cable car to get to Sentosa Island. I was so amazed, we went so high, into the sky. lol. All costing 180.48 singapore dollars, for 6 people. Sentosa Island was huge. I love it. I wanted to stay there for the rest of the singapore stay. sigh. I got to do only two attractions, Underwater World and Dolphins Lagoons. Underwater world was spectacular. I loved the tube underwater thing. It was like under-the-sea experienced, but more of like you'd feel you're swimming with the sea creatures. It was amazing. That's all I can say.

At the Doplhins Lagoon, I got to see the pink dolphins performed. Really wanted to swim with them, but time did not permit us for doing soo...sobsobsob. They were realy realy cute. I love those dolphins. Now I fully understand why Hayden Panettiere wanted to save them, risking her own life.

Neways, I am now completely whipped out from my day out today. So, thats' all I have to say about today , I think. Mabye I'll update tonight. who knows. Mabye I'll need to rant about how much I'm realy nervous about my IB results Tommorow!!!

ahhhh...OKaylah

xox, Zati

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Hey everyone

first of all, I love and miss all of you so don't you dare get mad at me on my second point.
second of all, I am now typing this in a hotel located half way across the world from NYC. More specifically in singapore. Will be staying here till sunday (one day after the results are released-according to the time zones)
third of all, I am VERY MUCH SORRY for not keeping my promise.Which is seeing each and everyone of you before we all leave our nests for University life. *sigh*
Fourth of all, Seriously stop making faces because I haven't realy told much of you guys when I'm leaving even though I knew for quite a while when my flight is set due.

So therefore, henceforth and ergo(?),

>_>Caroline, I'm Very sorry!!I know you've been looking forward for the Dumpling place. Sadly I'm not able to see you there. Hope you'll have with the others. BE NICE ~lol~ I SHALL see you in there nearest future, with GOD'S willing. love ya♥ man i'm realy freaking about chemistry and Maths. I'm going to miss you! my twin from far half away of the world.

>_>Leal, I'm very sorry for not being able to attend your goodbye bbq. (I know I've given you my face only for 5 minutes) therefore I'm realy realy sorry. I hope you have fun there in manila. I know you will. with all your childhood friends. hearts♥ soulmate!

>_>Yasmine, my forensic buddy. I'm realy going to miss you esp talking about Bones andd House. But who knows, there is still hope for me to crash you house in burkinofussoa(?) lol. Godd luck in everything! hugs<3

>_>Melina, woman! Sigh~ how's waterside without the UNIS-ERS crowding the place? lol. I'm realy going to miss you and smacking your head. I hope you know I meant well. I only wanted you to think positive about yourself and your body ! True zen will only come to you if you focus on clarity and positivity. remember that! See you in london! kisses<3

>_>Nicole, asizn. I'm going to see yoou bruneian boyfriend soon. Apparently one of my frined knows him so well. so...If I do get to see him, I'll get you an autograph and one of his latest cd of sumthing...other than that, Wishing you all the best love<3

>_>Zoe! Well I'm realy going to miss your chesscakes. and your advices. and you motherly love towards all of us. and the hugs. and your little sharpies. and your rants about school. REALY! best of luck for the future love<3

>_>Adaze! I'm going to miss you despite your akwardness. But that's the uniqueness thing about you that makes you loveable. I'm going to miss you being in chmistry class. I know I shall continue searching for our chemistry class in my future biochemistry class. sigh. best of wishess honey <3

All right. That's all I guess. Lastly, before my battery runs out, I realy miss all of you. I wish you alll the best of everything. I hope for the best for each and everyone of us. I pray that we get the IB Points that we want. (36 for me!!) I pray that all of you will not have to deal with guys(soulmate) that are unlawfull and so-wrong-not-your-type-person.lol. University life will be hard and painful but it will all be worth it! well the university life will not be that hard, more of much like freedom!!!!YES!!

LOL

NO drinking till you get drunk! NO drinking things that you leave in occasions! NO premartial "thing"!lol!-haram-

last words from me. I will always cheerish all the wonderful and painful memories that we shared together. Thank you very much for everything. Please continue what you do best. Don't ever change for a person. Facebook me always. If anyone of you misses my presence and can't get a hold of me through msn or facebook, you can always read my blog which I update atleast once a week.
www.blackbuterfly.multiply.com
be sure to check it out!

Lot's of LOVe,
zati

also known as, 1)izza 2)Izamon 3)aww izzaa 4)crier 5)the brunei person 6)too kind yet very agressive small person 7) person who has a scary kidney, body parts harvest basement.

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I can finally say with full grace-ness toddles to high school life and hello University~

On the Graduation day, like I've predicted was hectic. From the first hour my eyes opened till the last moment I shut my eyes from tearing like waterfall...In the morning, I had to get ready and help my mum prepare breakfast. Then I had to put maskara on and run down to the car. Destination: My brother's Middle School Graduation.

The ceremony went perfect. I shed tears when they showed their goodbye video, featuring the song "I'm going away on a jet plane"...

After that, we all went home. Next thing on my scheudule was getting ready for MY GRADUATION. I had to be at the UN at 1pm, and it was already 12.30pm. I had no time to waste. So I ran from room to room. Did my face in my Parent's room, then ran across the hallways into the backroom to get my dress. After putting my dress on, I went into the toilet searching for hair pins, realising that most of it were in the top drawer of my room. Having the hairpins in my hands with 15mins to spare, I decided not to put on a bun but instead just a normal clean ponytail. The phone kept on ringing for me in this period of time. (hmmmm....leal). So my hair was a mess, but it turned out pretty well. With 5 minutes left till 1pm, I searched for my heels, camera, ticket and bag. 1 minute left, I put my heels on, and left my apartment for the UN.

Arriving at the UN, my heart racing in a pace that I've never experienced before. Thought I was going to have a heart attack. This was not due running, but due o the realisation that I'm going to leave everything right then and there. Leaving my dear friends, not being able to see them everyday. Leaving School. And not being able to have a legit reason for being in the General Assembly, UN, ever again. *sigh*

I saw Leal, Yasmine, Zoe, Adaze, Caroline, Nicole, Anu, Milena, and Ryan waving, hugging, and holding their tears in their souls. Sigh. We were all sad deep inside even though most of us were very much coward to admit it to one another. *sigh* I was at the point of bursting into tears, but I held my head high and said no! not now.

We all went into the General Assembly, showing our tickets to the security guards to gain access. Jenny, The wonderful secretary of the college office, pinned white carnations onto everyone's clothing. Mrs. Newtonhouse, The head of College Office,  gave final directions on how to behave and where to line up. Dr.Rajan, The principle, congratulated the class. After all of these final notes before the cermony begun, all of us began to line up to take our last final class photo.SAD.

Then the moment of our class began. We were asked to line up outside the GA, to get ready for our graduation walk. We goofed off for at least 30minutes there. Watching over the balcony for our parents and relatives. Taking final shoots with our dear friends. Saying congratilations to each other. The security guard had to shut us down, because we were being noisy. Ahh..the Personality of our class will never change.

With the 30minutes past, and all the parents, relatives and Teachers all went inside; it was our moment to shine. We lined up according to our numbers. We had to repeat our numbers because Mrs.Newtonhouse could not hear. That was rather annoying. But hey, no regrets, another moment to cheerish.

After that was done, The music began to play, one by one we began marching to our walk of pride. sigh...In my thoughts " I'm not going to trip, I'm not going to trip",but then I saw right infront of me, Caroline TRIPPED on the stairs....My heart thumped so hard after that, thinking that it could happen to me. Luckily, as I walked across the narrow aisle, I walked as graciously as I can. Did not tripped. Went to my seat and waited for Nora, the last person to come in and seat down.

During the moments waitng till we receive our diploma, speeches were spoken for and music were orcastrated. Ms. Downey was our chosen teacher speaker wheareas Jonathan was our chosen student speaker (he almost cired that moment). I have to say, the UThant Scholarship receipent for next year was no surprise, Maya.

It was 45 minutes till 5.00pm, when the time of our individual names were being called upon the stage to received our diplomas. That was one of my prodest moments. I felt relieved that it was finally over. I felt sad that I had to leave.

After that, we went to Graduation Reception, where all of us said our final goodbyes to everyone.sigh, The saddest moment ever of the whole day. From that moment on, my eyes began tearing like Niagara Falls. My heart Broke.

Sigh.. To all my Friends and UNIS Class of 2008, I salute you all and wish you all the best. I have to admit even though I complain a lot for being in NYC and UNIS, I'm really gratefull for being here. I'm sure going to miss this place that I've come to know as my third home.

Your's truly,

Izati

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1) School is over for the year..Time to relax...

2) It's finallly Summer Time

3) Going back to My Loved Country

4) Going to do Forensic / Immunenology Intership during the summer

5) It's going to be a lovely day tommorow, not too hot and not too cold..just lovely

6) It's going to be Friday the 13th...(Really exciting)

7) I'm going to wear my Purple dress

8) I get to be in the UN, General Assembly (again)

9) I get to walk with music accompanied my walk..

10) I get to do my hair (more volumized)

11)I get to wear heels ( I'm not to excited about that...I just felt like putting that there)

12) The whole Class of '08 gets together for the last time

13) Why "12"? Simply because

Tommorow..Friday, 13th June 2008.Class of 2008

Graduation!!!!!!!!!Graduation!!!!!!

Graduation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!G.R.A.D.U.A.T.I.O.N

It's very nerve-wreaking because it's exciting...hahahhaha..apakan...I'm so out of myslef today

HAHAH...

I have a feeling that tommorow is going to be hectic...For 2 simple reason:

My graduation is during the afternoon and My brother's Graduation from Middle School in during the morning...

I don't have time to get ready like I planned, but that's fine as long as I get to do the important things....

AHHHHHHHHH.........

Changing Subject...

I am now currently chating with tons of people from back home....

so i g2g

love ,zati

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Prom night had finnayl arrived 30th May 2008. It was in my opinion "very interesting". Sad yet magnificient. the prom was held on the boat called " cloud nine". It was smaalllll....and the fact it was smaall and everyone was "legal" to smoke, all their fume was in my face. That was the only unpleaseant thing that night. I think that's where this red thing on my face came from....it's like this burnt spot...idk...i'll show it later...anyways here are some of the pictures taken last night..

I have more pictures but I'm to lazy to post them all up soo....yea..deal with it

What else about Prom night that I could describe...We passed by The statue of Liberty. She was the only one that was "green" that night...lol. The food, as per usual was mainly beef and chicken. So I had to settle with Pasta and salad, which was not so bad. My foot got stepped on so many times while on the dance floor that it became bruised. Jump Dancing on a Swifting on a Boat does not mix well..The ride was from 7pm (supposed to be 6 but 2 people came in late) till 10pm..

The night was Fabulous...

after all most of them went to after prom where they #$%^&*()!23...heard it wasn't that bad but I'm glad that I didn't go.. That's all I have to say

That's all I have for Prom Night...

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YES! Finally liberated from the IB. I feel free. I free like a whole stress load of stuff have been lifted.

ahhhhhh~~~anyways

That's all i want to say right now

BYE-BYE IB. till 6th of july. *sigh*

love, zati

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 I had enough of Philosophy! I realy wonder why I choose that subject in the first place. It's an interesting course, I have to admit. But like, when it come to exams and writing essays, analysis pictures, discussing the philosophy issue and stuuf, I just can't handle it anymore. I just can't do it.

Sigh. That's my rant. Whoo~ That was a relieve

 I had enough of IB exam. ERGH!! Sasak KUUU!!!!!!Ergh!!!!

I'll leave it at that..2nd Rant

I really need a Chill Pill. sigh~~what's a good stress reliever? Hmm...

I am now watching HULK. It's so much fun, when he turned green. And the girl has a unique blue eyes. It's so blue sky like. It's so cool...I love it.

I'd hate to turn green and huge though. I would love to transform into what his father turned into. The thing where he can be one with other materials. I would be able to carry all the heavy things all by myself, never to have to call on others. I hate calling others, disturbing their peace. But if it's my brother then it's another story, I'd give up everything, just to annoy my brothers...lol...I love annoying them both...haha...It's my 'will to power' exerting towards them...

Annoying my sister is a big no-no . She'll turn the little fun into a big cat fight. That's how she is...If I have another one of her cat fight again, I might get myslef a bald spot...isshhh...

I don't want a bold spot. That's just nasty. If I do then I might have to do my hair like Ms.Knox. A big HUGE BUN on top of my head covering the boald spot. ewwwwww.....Gali ehhh!~~~

Welll..That's alll...I'm done for today...

xox,

zati

ps: nadie if you're reading this, don't you dare leave the country 1 week earlier...sedih ku karang~~~~sobsob....we banar banar need to synchronize our times so that we can chat...unlike last time~~~~

From all the senior pranks that we wanted to do, we decided not to do them. because we're just nice like that. The Only thing that we did do is sit in the hallways, all 125 student class of 2008. Haha, Cali berabis. Yang the fun thing to see was both, Lou and Stastes our student supervisors, and Mr Atkinson, sat down with us. It was the most incredible scene to watch. We switched on the music from the Disco Locker, ( it's this locker that was modified with speakers so that every break time techno music would go blasting in the hallways). All of us screaming and shouting 0..8...0..8..0..8, singing this random song that i just can't remember.

But then, Dr. R had to ruin it. She just couldn't take a chill pill. She feels that she has all the power in the world. It's so unfair of her. She sent us home. All 125 students. "you have no right distrubting the other classes, GO HOME!" that's what she said with her indian accent.

 Well anyways, I hope Dr.R is fully happy with herself today, after what she did to us. We didn't do anything wrong. We didn't vandalize the school. We didn't destroy school property. Unlike all the years before us, they did just that. the toilets were covered with lotion and mustard. The lockers were painted in black. The clocks were smashed into pieces. 5 huge Rats were released into the staircase and the hallways, creating huge chaos. With all of these things that were done, one would naturally think that they would get into trouble...Well they didn't . NONE WHAT SO EVER. As for us, the class that just sat down in the hallways, get sent home, with the reason "distrupting other students"

Oh well, I can't complain much about getting home early. I guess I could take it as a present from her as a "resting day for seniors" after all we do need it. IB exams are coming up next week (Monday 5th may) AHHHHH!! I'm so scared for these exams. I realy don't know how to study for them. ahhhhhh!!!!@#$#@

bah atu tah sja kali, I'm actually procastinating as well as ranting right now.

So peace.

Don't forget to watch the clips and pictures of the "Senior sit down"

Preview of the album

This is Dr. R trying to shut us down. The other two behind her are our English teachers. Downey and Cisek. I love how both of them are loving and laughing this site, but Dr. R isn't.

xox,

Izati

This is the potrait of my Chemistry class. Mr.Afshinekoo actually cried that day (last chem class ever!!), but since he was controlling his mucho-ness, he did this water redox equations on the board. talking to himself. he didn't realize i was watching him the whole time. He was tearing up. Poor Mr. Afshinekoo~

Imma miss this 'thingy' class the most. "I kidney you"-Mr. Af, The mole

xox, zati